My mind is restless
The simmering frustration and anger is always bubbling below the surface. Can I ever accept he is dead and gone forever? If I felt he slipped away into the sea maybe I could live with that but then the other rumor and speculation takes precedence, it must. We cannot discount those who come forward ardent with another theory of murder. Life has been one long roller coaster since Damien Vanished.
I walk this very lonely road alone. Others can leave it and return to it when they feel they can. I can step away but it is always on my mind. Niggling at my brain. What if. Maybe this. What can I do? What is there left to hope for. Should I walk away? Can I do some good?