This thing between my ears is called my brain. It is what scientists liken to a computer in our head that processes and stores information Ad infinitum which means again and again. I know this why?? I googled it:
‘Ad infinitum definition, to infinity; endlessly; without limit.’
This happens a lot. I feel totally overwhelmed with all aspects of Damien’s case which is sitting up on the dirty cold case shelf being studiously ignored by police in some forgotten place. I have reports and reports to read then I have reports ‘of’ reports…… and then I have more reports (all churned out on tax payers money) - about an investigation that failed in numerous ways. Police speak - trying to justify the failures and learning from mistakes and things are better now. No, they are not better, not when you look at some of the recent cases. 21 years they learned little and failed to put that knowledge gained to use by ensuring it doesn’t happen again. But it does, again and again. Especially when young lads go missing.
I need to step back and take stock but my brain, bless it, wants to alleviate some of the storage space issues by allowing me to type the words here into a blog. I have to understand and accept that the lunacy I have experienced in this journey and continue to experience while working with police has always and continues to be abysmal. It has been an eye opening shocking disappointment and that despite everything they only seem to get abysmally worse in how they deal with the grieving parent of a missing child. He is NOT a lost puppy….he is my son. Have a heart and forget the formal anal police speak and reach into your soul and treat us like human beings, especially parents of lost boys. They have not all run off into the sunset never to be seen again because they are all having a “funny five minutes” as I was told. I know I am not alone in this experience. Some may have fared better, but too many feel as I do. Frustrated and disillusioned and disappointed and despairing.
I fear it is only going to get worse as police funding is cut yet again. Training and policy will be difficult to improve when nobody seems to care.
DAMIEN'S LAW PETITION
I care. Help me get this petition before the eyes of those who might be able make a difference.