Little Red Robin who sees all...

The Little Red Robin who sees all....

My day starts at 4:30 a.m, or earlier.  I go to the gym for 45 mins to an hour.  I call it my office, because while I am on the treadmill or bike I am checking email, talking to people on FB about Damien, the case and passing along information.    I go to work, immerse myself in that, surfacing briefly to check messages if I hear my cell phone pinging, though have to turn it off or I would be glued to it instead of work.  So my day goes.  When I get home I am again focused on Damien, the case and information. Yes, I am also guilty of red light texting and checking messages on the way home for lunch...every minute and moment pretty much is geared to finding Damien and the search efforts. 

I have met some very amazing people along the way.  People who  have gone over and above to try and find Damien in the woodland.  Digging in all weather, slipping in the mud, falling down, breaking ribs, being stung by.....NETTLES.... caught pneumonia.....bitten by mosquito's the list goes on!  They organized carol services, gigs, marches, vigils.  Distributed posters.  Relentlessly raised Damien's profile on social Media and  moderate his Facebook groups.  Support in general from the public who Tweet and share his profile and new articles is amazing.  The support from media has been phenomenal.  I cannot say enough about everyone.  I would love to name you all but I know you are not in this for fame or fortune and would not thank me for it, but you know who you all are.

All this effort for Damien is humbling and I wish he could know.  Maybe he does.  The little red Robin never fails to visit Team Damien's when they are working in the woods, he is never far away and makes himself known.

To everyone who has had a hand in supporting us, sharing news stories, petitions online posters or anything at all.....THANK YOUxx 

Bottom Feeders

Since Damien was featured on Unsolved on BBC Three, I have been inundated with messages of sympathy, support and snippets of helpful information surrounding the situation.

The IW is a beautiful place and filled with warm hearted decent people.

The IW is also a very small place and people tend to stick together because they are family or old friends and have loyalties.  But some do it out of fear.

You ask what fear?  I mean the ugly (physically in some cases)  underbelly that exists in the shadows, bottom feeders, under a rock types who slither out in the night to distribute their ill gotten goods.  People in Cowes will know exactly who I refer to.  No LOVE lost between 99% of the town and those scumbags who spout rubbish in their FB about their lives ruined by the case of a missing 16 year old.  Boohoo.....

These scumbags forget that way before November 1996 they were polluting the local populace with their drugs.  Bullying and beating anyone who gets in their way.  Murdering and getting away with it. Arrested numerous times, jailed, bailed, lying and cheating and stealing.  Way before Damien even came to live on the IW, they made their beds and they are still laying in them, sweaty, dirty, bed bugs and all and while they are there, spawning more just the same.....

I have read  some jumbled up addled brained comments - misspelled and shouting about everything and everyone because they are bottom feeders, always have been, always will be and will never rise above the cesspit they thrive in.  Some blather on about a program they were NOT included in, yet want slither out of their pungent lives and bask in the glow.  What do I know, it's just my opinion that they were not important enough and too small fry  of no consequence and bottom feeders.

Yes, I clocked that and I have to ask what possesses a person to want to include themselves?  Because they were not featured?  Who cares they got questioned in the past?  Shout loudly enough and someone may have to have a closer look.

Information that is in the public domain isn't private....

I also see 'likes' on the bottom feeders public comments on FB,  while they also lurk on mine.

Isn't it time that the 99% stood up and said enough?  Get rid of the blight.  Clean up the town.  Stop the devastation of the youth.

This blog is post Unsolved: The boy who disappeared. 
Parts of the existing blog were written prior to July 2016 and may have comments that seem a little odd considering the publicity that Damien has had after being featured in UNSOLVED on BBC Three.....
Please visit http://www.bbc.co.uk/bbcthree/tag/unsolved

This blog is post Unsolved: The boy who disappeared. 
Parts of the existing blog were written prior to July 2016 and may have comments that seem a little odd considering the publicity that Damien has had after being featured in UNSOLVED on BBC Three.....
Please visit http://www.bbc.co.uk/bbcthree/tag/unsolved

Damien Nettles missing 19 years on November 2, 2015

Damien, you will have been missing 19 years on November 2, 2015.  I don’t feel like it’s been that long. 

I won’t say we are over it, that can’t ever be the case.  It is easier, or perhaps we have just got used to this life of ambiguous loss.  We still love and miss you every day.

So let me say to those who are no longer thinking about you that it’s okay.  

Please don’t creep around us like we have a dirty secret.  Don’t mention his name in hushed tones.  If its uncomfortable or inconvenient...move along. 

I understand some have “moved on”.  I am glad for them that they have that luxury. 

I am still left in the wake of it all.  I am standing in the same spot as I was the day I realized you were lost.  I have that fear and panic in the pit of my stomach but I have learned to contain it. 

You know I have never given up on you.  Support for us finding you is humbling Damien.  You would not believe all the things we have done, and are still doing, to find answers. You would not believe how much you are cared for by people who never knew you.  You are cared about and that is fitting since you were always caring about others.  Kind.

So I want you to know that we all love and miss you.  I know that I can’t “move on.”  That is okay.  Let others move forward, but I will never leave you behind.  You’re always with me, your mummy.  I love you forever and I miss you.

I am sharing something written by a friend and a conversation with an ex-police informer on the IW.  No names, just the text and names are blocked except for mention of my son James who this person contacted with information about what happened.................

"Over the last 4/5 years I have felt anger, resentment and hatred to those who took Damien away from his family. They have walked our streets free, knowing what they did and believing they have got away with murder. They have left Val, Ed and the rest of the family to suffer like no parent should ever suffer. They are living in limbo an unknown world to the rest of us.  

As I stated previously I can never name names for legal reasons but I would like to share with extracts from private messages and texts to prove that people who were not involved in 1996 but were privy to information just a few years ago who have declined to admit they were given this information or pass it on.   

As a result of this even the police’s hands are tied and they must seriously think it is hilarious to watch us dig in all weathers with all illnesses and not even have the decency to leave a marker so we can get nearer Damien’s grave.   

I was actually told that this person was a paid police informer and this was confirmed by an CID officer who told they always got results from, yet later when I spoke to a police officer who would have been still in school when Damien went missing that they were unreliable and a liar. I can say that I found this person open & honest about their past. So a Liar No! Never once did their version of events change.   

It just seems strange that the police steadfastly refuse to dig this site despite the same information coming in from quite a few sources yet funds are constantly being used to search Greece & Portugal for two other missing children.  

I actually feel sorry for this person as they have been to the police twice with the same information and yet even branded as a liar they have steadfastly stuck to their story. To me that tells us everything but you have to question as why they will not reveal the identity of the friend that had the confession made to them, who went to Damien’s grave and said a prayer, is it fear or loyalty?????

Please read and let us know what you think.".............. 

15/06/2012 20:11
Hi ****, still away on my break from my children. I forgot to tell you when Police rang me to ask questions last year they laughed down phone when I told them I was told where he may be, I put Phone down on them, told ***** they giggled. Not f*ing funny. I Am going to see my dear friend when he's back from holiday himself! And I would now like a drawing of where he was told where he is. Can only write so much in 1text in this box so will continue on more pages- 

5/06/2012 20:16
Do not wish to give c.i.d's names who I worked for but those who lived in **** ******s nans shack were **** ********- dead now. ****** ***********- Dead now. *** ****** Alive. A big lad called ******* who I shall add was a compleate junkie bully&did'nt give a shit who stood in his way, he was around- 

15/06/2012 20:24
6ft stocky, dark hair, it could have been him the heartless piece of shit who stood outside Vals house! I will ask my friend to draw what he saw&where! To the point he was shown... It's the best I can do for you All. Police are useless, covering up murder tape because one of there own men f*ked up. Do please explain to Val that if my friend wishes not to speak no-more then I-
15/06/2012 20:24
Have to accept it.x

23/06/2012 14:15
•they all asked what I knew! But at that time I was not told of where he may be laid! Big Nose had blondey white hair, he was always nice to me, if they had'nt been, I would have told them to fuck themselfs like I did with the laughing idiot on the phone&so I did ****** when she tried to ring me twice again not long after he laughed down his phone to me. I told James& he got onto it. I was then told he was down Newport path track, that was wrong. He is in *******. Does'nt matter how long it takes there boy aint going anywhere if he where my friend was shown. You see my friend is not no lier, he I trust more than many, I trust him like I do ***, and he is not involved but 

Image23/06/2012 14:33

Was shown where he lays. When my friend told me he had passion of loss in his voice whem he told me. Why me because he knew I spoke to someone who used to be in C.I.D. My friend had his left hand on his heart as he spoke. He has children of his own&was shooken up alittle. He feels unsafe with the police, in fact he hates them. And because I'd mentioned *** he found he had trust in me to tell me. All of them would ask me once every few months what I may have heard. There are so many storys, I bet mine will never come to light.x 

24/06/2012 20:19
Right if your coming out from the in the ****, nettle side. But on your left when you get to a huge hump hes on left from ****** side... It's alittle further in, you will see hump in the ground.  

25/06/2012 14:31
I will keep to this one... At least **** does'nt have to draw nothing. Just to show me the spot will do just fine. I have butterflys in my tummy of worry but I know I should'nt as there really is a trust in **** & yourself. I do Not wish to go missing! I do not wish for my children would go missing because I spoke& my words were said to the Wrong person. We have the spot. Now to find the bump in path or next to it the path on left. Depends which way you go in? He Is on the left.  Speak soon. ***** .xx  

11/07/2012 15:39
I've spoken to my good friend. Told him where my friend& I were stood. I was stood in the middle of the 3paths. the steep stone path was to my left, which most people walk through although it's steep, flat tar mac lays up it&then a bungalow on your left as if you were walking down&then a grassy path inbetween both bungalows. &I where stood right there... God I am so happy inside to be able to speak to him, we do not wish to have nothing. Give it to others to help find theres.x  

12/07/2012 11:05
been to his two days in a row as not seen him since Jan, not easy to catch him alone but worth the wait... He did say, "Parkhurt Forest, what the f*ck is all that about"... I told my friend it did'nt come from me. There are many who are just guessing. Wish they'd stop bloody guessing. It does'nt do us any good.x 

Outwardly calm inwardly screaming

Silently, life moves forward without my lost son.  I am outwardly calm.  I don’t cry anymore, not in a way anyone could see.  It's a silent sob that only I can feel and hear.  It is hard to explain, though parents in my situation will  know exactly what I mean.  Beneath the quiet façade there is turmoil, confusion and an acute feeling of loss.  I hold onto a massive grief tinged with anger, remorse and bitterness.  Outwardly calm inwardly screaming.

Over the years I have learned to cope a little better with the loss.   I never thought I would last a year after my son disappeared off the face of the earth.  With support and encouragement from Missing People, especially in the early days, I felt lifted up by their constant support.  I can't say I am whole again, the pain is still here in my heart, but I can say I am stronger and I than I ever dreamt I could be. I will never give up the search, no matter how that might end.  I want my son back one way or another.